It pains me to think that I used to love blogging, and it’s been 6 months since my last isolated post. I neglected to feed my ‘inner artist’ for a while, choosing study and workaholism instead. I felt like I forgot how to be an artist, bereft of the joy it brought to my life.
You may or may not have heard of Julia Cameron, or the book she wrote called The Artist’s Way, but in it she talks of your creativity as an energy like a child. It is your duty to nurture this ‘artist child’ so that creativity can flow. I found it interesting to think of creativity as a separate entity that existed within me. It gave my now neglected ‘inner artist’ a different sense of self.
In the thick of my study-and-workaholism time, I set some time aside to ‘go be arty’. Having previously chosen to spend all my art time as study time, this ‘go be arty’ scheduling was an oasis of fun in a desert of seriousness. I readied my pencil. Draw something. Anything.
The blank page stared back at me. The oasis was dry.
Frustrated, I angrily berated myself for not being inspired. I had put aside precious time and my inner artist was not performing as I was instructing it to.
And that was when my inner artist spoke back.
As I grew to understand that my creativity could be a separate entity, it gained its own voice. This is how my inner artist manifested itself – as Brain.
Brain showed me that my inner artist is not a performing monkey. Brain argued back when I was busy telling it off for not being inspired. Brain would make me realise when I was being totally unreasonable. Brain is often the uncensored me.
As I had this conversation with Brain, I drew and wrote it down. At first I tried to make it neat, so that drawn Laura looked more like real Laura but the speed in which I needed to get the drawing on paper wouldn’t allow for neatness. So I drew myself as a stick person; Brain was a sort of speech bubble with squiggles.
I have since had several conversations with Brain, always helping me stay true on my path of creativity.
Below is my first conversation with Brain: